Alice, I've been thinking today
if you follow that rabbit's way
You won't find a wonderland
Cause if I could take you by the hand
I would lead you to where i know it is
All that you could imagine, and everything more
Alice, you're the queen of my heart
I know we can start
our own Wonderland
take ya by the hand
Forever, we could be together
The Special thing
It won't be a dream
And I know it seems
Farfetched
But I want to be
With you everyday
Tweedle Dee, Tweedle Dum
Alice, you're the queen of my heart
I know we can start
our own Wonderland
take ya by the hand
Forever, we could be together
I know the signs are there
they won't get you anywhere
I could show you where to go
The path is clear, I know it so
But I want you to see
Wherever you be, is my Wonderland
Sunday, November 22, 2015
Withered
I bought you a bouquet
I complimented your perfume
I didn't know how to say
So I wrote it in a volume
All the ways I tried to tell you
Didn't get the point across
I guess I don't have a clue
Now, your gain is my loss
You didn't care much for him
but I am starting to see
It must've been the fact
that you outgrew me
I read it in the paper
You finally married him
Now I'm sleeping on my floor
cause the bed is full of sin
Your flowers are all wilted
Your perfume has lost its scent
My silence had you guilted
You must've forgot what I meant
I'm just another chapter
of your adolescent loves
I'm just a sick puppy
you once held in your gloves
So now you're a woman
and I am still a kid
Life's not made of what you plan
it's made of what I never did
I complimented your perfume
I didn't know how to say
So I wrote it in a volume
All the ways I tried to tell you
Didn't get the point across
I guess I don't have a clue
Now, your gain is my loss
You didn't care much for him
but I am starting to see
It must've been the fact
that you outgrew me
I read it in the paper
You finally married him
Now I'm sleeping on my floor
cause the bed is full of sin
Your flowers are all wilted
Your perfume has lost its scent
My silence had you guilted
You must've forgot what I meant
I'm just another chapter
of your adolescent loves
I'm just a sick puppy
you once held in your gloves
So now you're a woman
and I am still a kid
Life's not made of what you plan
it's made of what I never did
Hold on, Let go.
When I want to let go
I just hold on tighter
When things start to glow
I just flick my lighter
Flames consume us
When we're alone
We covered up in lust
What we felt to the bone
The wind blows
Through the trees
Laughter of children
Carried on the breeze
The purity of love
Is sold down the river
My loss of self
Makes my soul shiver
I just hold on tighter
When things start to glow
I just flick my lighter
Flames consume us
When we're alone
We covered up in lust
What we felt to the bone
The wind blows
Through the trees
Laughter of children
Carried on the breeze
The purity of love
Is sold down the river
My loss of self
Makes my soul shiver
Who I am
I wanna be an artist
So I split open my heart and pour it on the canvas
I wanna be a real man
So I cry and cry hoping someone gives a damn
about who I am
If you wanna know who I am
Imagine what Hell is
and subtract the flames
and the heat
cause there's no light in me
it's just scaring me
being who I am
I wanna be your best friend
so I cut and cut, until I see the end
I want to feel what love is
so I tear myself apart just to get rid
Of who I am
I wanna be a great man
so I talk and talk and never lend a hand
I wanna be your husband
so I think and think, till I'm on the brink
of being Who I am
So I split open my heart and pour it on the canvas
I wanna be a real man
So I cry and cry hoping someone gives a damn
about who I am
If you wanna know who I am
Imagine what Hell is
and subtract the flames
and the heat
cause there's no light in me
it's just scaring me
being who I am
I wanna be your best friend
so I cut and cut, until I see the end
I want to feel what love is
so I tear myself apart just to get rid
Of who I am
I wanna be a great man
so I talk and talk and never lend a hand
I wanna be your husband
so I think and think, till I'm on the brink
of being Who I am
Where is it?
I need to live but I want to die
I can't find the tears to cry
I need to love, but I want to hate
I want some freedom, but all I have is fate
A void deepens in my soul
It seems this is all I will even know
Please fill me up, oh Father
You are the bread, the living water
I sit here waiting for some one
I just want this petty life to be done
My will to live is greater than my pain
You died for me so my death was slain
I kneel to you, I need your aid
You know me so well, for me you made
Give me some one to love
Peace I desire, like a dove
Thank you Father for these trials
Through this pain and sadness you make me smile
I can't find the tears to cry
I need to love, but I want to hate
I want some freedom, but all I have is fate
A void deepens in my soul
It seems this is all I will even know
Please fill me up, oh Father
You are the bread, the living water
I sit here waiting for some one
I just want this petty life to be done
My will to live is greater than my pain
You died for me so my death was slain
I kneel to you, I need your aid
You know me so well, for me you made
Give me some one to love
Peace I desire, like a dove
Thank you Father for these trials
Through this pain and sadness you make me smile
What Ails Me
When I can face my feelings
and the way I am inside
Finally acknowledge that my father died
I can become something more than I am now
The love that I have denied, I finally can allow
I can sleep without waking from an evil dream
I won't be manic or depressive, somewhere in between
I don't know who it is, but I can just be myself
It's like life is just a dusty book waiting on my shelf
But for now I'm stuck with sorrow
and this cup I fill with wine
Though there never is a tomorrow
That's when I'll be just fine
Maybe God is never listening
Then I just talk to myself
What if he thinks the same thing
God, Are you speaking to thyself?
Aloneness is my specialty
and sadness is my goal
I have no need for sobriety
If I'm wanting to be whole
and the way I am inside
Finally acknowledge that my father died
I can become something more than I am now
The love that I have denied, I finally can allow
I can sleep without waking from an evil dream
I won't be manic or depressive, somewhere in between
I don't know who it is, but I can just be myself
It's like life is just a dusty book waiting on my shelf
But for now I'm stuck with sorrow
and this cup I fill with wine
Though there never is a tomorrow
That's when I'll be just fine
Maybe God is never listening
Then I just talk to myself
What if he thinks the same thing
God, Are you speaking to thyself?
Aloneness is my specialty
and sadness is my goal
I have no need for sobriety
If I'm wanting to be whole
Universe
You are the whole universe
Your eyes are all the stars in the skies
The skies which could never contain
All my feelings, hopes and dreams
Your eyes are all the stars in the skies
and they still even sparkle when you cry
They burn with passion, and fade with disappointment
Of all the stars your face is one
The sun, shining bright
Blinding my judgement
Dissolving my self-remorse
A celestial body that you have
With a gravity that pulls me in
I can't help but get close
You're every place I have ever been
But your heart is the moon
Always the same, constant
Though the appearance changes
But as the phases cycle
They pull on the ocean of my soul
Sometimes I'm high, sometimes I'm low
But you shall forever know
You are the same, you are constant
But simply the outlook, I have lost it
Your eyes are all the stars in the skies
The skies which could never contain
All my feelings, hopes and dreams
Your eyes are all the stars in the skies
and they still even sparkle when you cry
They burn with passion, and fade with disappointment
Of all the stars your face is one
The sun, shining bright
Blinding my judgement
Dissolving my self-remorse
A celestial body that you have
With a gravity that pulls me in
I can't help but get close
You're every place I have ever been
But your heart is the moon
Always the same, constant
Though the appearance changes
But as the phases cycle
They pull on the ocean of my soul
Sometimes I'm high, sometimes I'm low
But you shall forever know
You are the same, you are constant
But simply the outlook, I have lost it
Trying
Failure is just an attempt..
but from success am I exempt?
I will wait for you til the end of time!
My thoughts all but sublime
You stand right there...
but I see no hide nor hair
of you inside my heart.
You stand millions of miles away
I will say it finally, it's not okay!
I see inside your soul
I am not there but I see the hole
The hole I try to fill.
Look inside yet still, deeper inside
This thought might take you for a ride
I am not the strong one I portray
but I am a weakling, and a stray
I have nothing, but you and me
Look deeper and then you'll see
I love you and don't love me
Close your eyes and then you'll see
I am the foolish man
I wouldn't have blamed you if you'd ran
Crying I say to you
I am the tratior and the fool
I have nothing, but me and you
Perpetual sadness continues to ensue
I hate my life
I curse this strife
All I really have is you
I break down at the thought
of your beauty distrought
I have a worry, I am in fright
These words are not of light
I am no hero
In fact all I am is zero
I am fading away
In my heart is where I lay
I am not standing here
I am in my heart trembling in fear
Today I say
An end is on the way
I chose not to fight
Was it right?
I am not worth a cent
Yet I am bent
Bent on a solution to these tears
Yet I still am in my heart trembling in fear
but from success am I exempt?
I will wait for you til the end of time!
My thoughts all but sublime
You stand right there...
but I see no hide nor hair
of you inside my heart.
You stand millions of miles away
I will say it finally, it's not okay!
I see inside your soul
I am not there but I see the hole
The hole I try to fill.
Look inside yet still, deeper inside
This thought might take you for a ride
I am not the strong one I portray
but I am a weakling, and a stray
I have nothing, but you and me
Look deeper and then you'll see
I love you and don't love me
Close your eyes and then you'll see
I am the foolish man
I wouldn't have blamed you if you'd ran
Crying I say to you
I am the tratior and the fool
I have nothing, but me and you
Perpetual sadness continues to ensue
I hate my life
I curse this strife
All I really have is you
I break down at the thought
of your beauty distrought
I have a worry, I am in fright
These words are not of light
I am no hero
In fact all I am is zero
I am fading away
In my heart is where I lay
I am not standing here
I am in my heart trembling in fear
Today I say
An end is on the way
I chose not to fight
Was it right?
I am not worth a cent
Yet I am bent
Bent on a solution to these tears
Yet I still am in my heart trembling in fear
Trauma
What's the line between
a drama and a tragedy?
Those are the kinda things
That really get to me
I drank the poison
but you were just asleep
I would buy your love
but you aren't that cheap
Are you, are you?
a drama and a tragedy?
Those are the kinda things
That really get to me
I drank the poison
but you were just asleep
I would buy your love
but you aren't that cheap
Are you, are you?
Too Rich
You know they gave me your ashes
They made me spend all your caches
Now I wear all your sashes
And I suffer your lashes
Now you know I'm just rehashing
All that I feel
I can never be what they tell me to
I never knew I thought, what I thought I knew
Could be as true, as I could be you
The voices in my head cry out "Shame"
I guess that's just the name of the game
I know I'll never get away from them
Just like I can't bring life to him
Sometimes I cry when things don't go right
But people don't know what I do at night
I guess they'll never understand who I am
But you know they'll never give a damn
and I wish you could see me now
and I wish you could just tell me how
How can I be like the way you were cause
The way I am is just not good enough
They made me spend all your caches
Now I wear all your sashes
And I suffer your lashes
Now you know I'm just rehashing
All that I feel
I can never be what they tell me to
I never knew I thought, what I thought I knew
Could be as true, as I could be you
The voices in my head cry out "Shame"
I guess that's just the name of the game
I know I'll never get away from them
Just like I can't bring life to him
Sometimes I cry when things don't go right
But people don't know what I do at night
I guess they'll never understand who I am
But you know they'll never give a damn
and I wish you could see me now
and I wish you could just tell me how
How can I be like the way you were cause
The way I am is just not good enough
To
water to blood
dry to flood
hate to love
push to shove
death to life
maid to wife
sleep to wake
heart to break
wine to drink
wrong to think
young to old
clothes to fold
rings to wear
kids to bear
love to give
life to live
cry to sleep
soul to keep
me to you
what to do
dry to flood
hate to love
push to shove
death to life
maid to wife
sleep to wake
heart to break
wine to drink
wrong to think
young to old
clothes to fold
rings to wear
kids to bear
love to give
life to live
cry to sleep
soul to keep
me to you
what to do
TIME
I age years
Yet a second has yet to pass
I have these fears
That at the end of this minute I won't have a thing
And I will be old
What will the future bring?
I wait and wait another second passes by
I watch it pass
And say goodbye
To all I could have had and done
The things of that second
And only one
A year goes by
Whilst a blink
Of an eye
I see my chance time and time again
But I still have years
For yout heart to win
I have all this to live
All these days
All my life to give
To you and you alone
Waiting here, Waiting
Here by the phone
For one last call
I wait fo it
You are my all
Trust me, please
I won't hurt you
I say it with some ease
I know it is harder than I say
I want this
I wait for the day
Where all you do
And all you say
I already knew
Here is a thought
We can make new memories
And not one of us distrought
Yet a second has yet to pass
I have these fears
That at the end of this minute I won't have a thing
And I will be old
What will the future bring?
I wait and wait another second passes by
I watch it pass
And say goodbye
To all I could have had and done
The things of that second
And only one
A year goes by
Whilst a blink
Of an eye
I see my chance time and time again
But I still have years
For yout heart to win
I have all this to live
All these days
All my life to give
To you and you alone
Waiting here, Waiting
Here by the phone
For one last call
I wait fo it
You are my all
Trust me, please
I won't hurt you
I say it with some ease
I know it is harder than I say
I want this
I wait for the day
Where all you do
And all you say
I already knew
Here is a thought
We can make new memories
And not one of us distrought
That Thing I love
I love it so
I want you to know
That no matter what I do
Every day, through and through
It will always be there
Sometimes it doesn't feel fair
My love for love will never be gone
It has been for so very long
I will lay down my life for it
A fire that wasn't just lit
I pursue it will all my heart
And I am no where near a start
Of loving love, or fighting fate
It may seem a little late
But love will come for me
Just as a locksmith with a key
To all my problems and strife
A source of joy, and meaning of life
I want you to know
That no matter what I do
Every day, through and through
It will always be there
Sometimes it doesn't feel fair
My love for love will never be gone
It has been for so very long
I will lay down my life for it
A fire that wasn't just lit
I pursue it will all my heart
And I am no where near a start
Of loving love, or fighting fate
It may seem a little late
But love will come for me
Just as a locksmith with a key
To all my problems and strife
A source of joy, and meaning of life
Sweet Melody of Despair
Sweet sorrow
It makes me stronger they say
Sometimes I would give my soul
Just to make it go away
I am crazy
Or so it’s said
Far from sane
Yet far from dead
I fight internally
Me versus me
I have nothing
Nothing that I see
I am crushed
I am broken
All that is in my heart
Is a faded token
Of what once was
And never to be
Should I give in
Into He
I resist for me
I want to be my own man
I am foolish
I obviously need his hand
I stand here at the gate of earth
And from this gate there are two paths
One of foolishness
And one that forever lasts
Why do I walk on Foolish lane?
All I need is You
Be my cane
My legs are weak
And this is an uphill fight
All I need is You
The ever-burning light
Guide me upon this path
All I have is a soul
Not even a good one
One with many holes
One more question
Let me ask
For this life is there an end
If I walk this path?
Well, I stand on Foolish lane
And if I go back I will be hated
All my friends are here
All very faded
Can I bring life back to them?
Can I save them from the fire?
This one thing,
Is all that I desire
This path has been well trodden
I say come with me to path that is perfect
I say this with no doubt
This path is without defect
Turn back!
Turn back!
This is the wrong path!
There is no end to this road
The road of evil and death
I say to you verily
If you don’t turn now, you will regret
This choice of eternal proportions
Stop, and hear!
Come back with me to the road of life
If you don’t turn right now, I fear
That you will walk on
A natural thought
But not, the right one
But turn or be forever distraught
Come with me!
Over here!
I want to save you!
The beginning is near!
Don’t choose an end
Come with me and see
The great things of life
And be forever free!
It makes me stronger they say
Sometimes I would give my soul
Just to make it go away
I am crazy
Or so it’s said
Far from sane
Yet far from dead
I fight internally
Me versus me
I have nothing
Nothing that I see
I am crushed
I am broken
All that is in my heart
Is a faded token
Of what once was
And never to be
Should I give in
Into He
I resist for me
I want to be my own man
I am foolish
I obviously need his hand
I stand here at the gate of earth
And from this gate there are two paths
One of foolishness
And one that forever lasts
Why do I walk on Foolish lane?
All I need is You
Be my cane
My legs are weak
And this is an uphill fight
All I need is You
The ever-burning light
Guide me upon this path
All I have is a soul
Not even a good one
One with many holes
One more question
Let me ask
For this life is there an end
If I walk this path?
Well, I stand on Foolish lane
And if I go back I will be hated
All my friends are here
All very faded
Can I bring life back to them?
Can I save them from the fire?
This one thing,
Is all that I desire
This path has been well trodden
I say come with me to path that is perfect
I say this with no doubt
This path is without defect
Turn back!
Turn back!
This is the wrong path!
There is no end to this road
The road of evil and death
I say to you verily
If you don’t turn now, you will regret
This choice of eternal proportions
Stop, and hear!
Come back with me to the road of life
If you don’t turn right now, I fear
That you will walk on
A natural thought
But not, the right one
But turn or be forever distraught
Come with me!
Over here!
I want to save you!
The beginning is near!
Don’t choose an end
Come with me and see
The great things of life
And be forever free!
Pursuit of Love
Love, oh love
Why do you run from me
I will chase you for an eternity
I see you in the distance
A trick of the mind
I see you near all the time
I wonder this
Is it so that you are right here
That you are so near?
You can not run from me forever
Who am I kidding?
There is no love for me!
I have nothing
When love is everything
Do you see the tragity?
If I find love...
Will it flee
Will it flee from me?
I cry at the trickery
Will this hoax
be pulled upon me?
I have me
I try to love him
He is so foolish
He thinks someone could love him
No one could ever
Because he doesn't love me
Why do you run from me
I will chase you for an eternity
I see you in the distance
A trick of the mind
I see you near all the time
I wonder this
Is it so that you are right here
That you are so near?
You can not run from me forever
Who am I kidding?
There is no love for me!
I have nothing
When love is everything
Do you see the tragity?
If I find love...
Will it flee
Will it flee from me?
I cry at the trickery
Will this hoax
be pulled upon me?
I have me
I try to love him
He is so foolish
He thinks someone could love him
No one could ever
Because he doesn't love me
Picture of Truth
I look into your eye
And I wish it were a lie
You smile with such joy
Is it really real or just a decoy
To make me feel alive again
But in this vision I will not win
I am so broken at your love
But I know you're with HIM above
I can't fit into this frame
Sometimes I feel like I am so lame
For I cannot be you, or like even
And to live is surely the reason
I know you look down on me
And I would pay any fee
To see you once more
For you I truly love and adore
This picture holds so much pain
As if you're smiling is all in vain
I can't look away from your loving gaze
That I will try to replicate for all my days
It breaks me I cannot be with you
And right now I don't know what to say or do
All I know to do is to love and cherish
Before I no longer can, and I perish
And I wish it were a lie
You smile with such joy
Is it really real or just a decoy
To make me feel alive again
But in this vision I will not win
I am so broken at your love
But I know you're with HIM above
I can't fit into this frame
Sometimes I feel like I am so lame
For I cannot be you, or like even
And to live is surely the reason
I know you look down on me
And I would pay any fee
To see you once more
For you I truly love and adore
This picture holds so much pain
As if you're smiling is all in vain
I can't look away from your loving gaze
That I will try to replicate for all my days
It breaks me I cannot be with you
And right now I don't know what to say or do
All I know to do is to love and cherish
Before I no longer can, and I perish
The One
Tis you I adore
I desire to know you more
Please, I need one to hold
One to share with happiness untold
For you are my loved one
With you I am more than one
My heart sings
At the thoughts you bring
I love you m'dear
Having you I have nothing to fear
All I have you can see in a mirror
My heart holds a picture of you
I hope you feel this too
I care about you more than me
And soon enough you will see
That you are more
Than me at my core
I will wait an eternity
For you to see
The one you truly love is me
I desire to know you more
Please, I need one to hold
One to share with happiness untold
For you are my loved one
With you I am more than one
My heart sings
At the thoughts you bring
I love you m'dear
Having you I have nothing to fear
All I have you can see in a mirror
My heart holds a picture of you
I hope you feel this too
I care about you more than me
And soon enough you will see
That you are more
Than me at my core
I will wait an eternity
For you to see
The one you truly love is me
Unjust Comparisons
You're so pretty
and I'm so alone
I wasted another dime
you don't answer your phone
I'm recalling all the good times
I've thrown away the bad memories
We're like lemons and limes
We've lost our perfect symmetry
I sit on your old steps
Almost every night
I remember your regrets
I guess you were right
Now we're so different
like lemons and limes
Now that you're gone
I've lost my rhythm and rhyme
and I'm so alone
I wasted another dime
you don't answer your phone
I'm recalling all the good times
I've thrown away the bad memories
We're like lemons and limes
We've lost our perfect symmetry
I sit on your old steps
Almost every night
I remember your regrets
I guess you were right
Now we're so different
like lemons and limes
Now that you're gone
I've lost my rhythm and rhyme
Sometimes
I wish I was an alcoholic
Cause then I could drink you away
And the pain's almost asystolic
But then again, I think you should stay
You taunt me while sleeping
And I have no response
Your memory I'm keeping
It gives no renaissance
Why don't you attend,
To a word I am saying?
You just want a friend
But I'm the one paying
Another day becomes an escapee
And I'm still hurt
but I'm sure you do love me
I always will assert
Cause then I could drink you away
And the pain's almost asystolic
But then again, I think you should stay
You taunt me while sleeping
And I have no response
Your memory I'm keeping
It gives no renaissance
Why don't you attend,
To a word I am saying?
You just want a friend
But I'm the one paying
Another day becomes an escapee
And I'm still hurt
but I'm sure you do love me
I always will assert
Never
I just want someone to hold at night
through all the fears of fright
I just want someone to call me dear
Smiling as they hold me near
I just want someone that loves me
For what I truly do and be
through all the fears of fright
I just want someone to call me dear
Smiling as they hold me near
I just want someone that loves me
For what I truly do and be
Lost, not Found
I'm lost and found
and round and round
I'm found and lost
and tossed and tossed
on the violent waves
You said he saves
and I said, from what?
and round and round
I'm found and lost
and tossed and tossed
on the violent waves
You said he saves
and I said, from what?
Sleep
sleep in your heart
for there all things are safe
sleep in my arms tonight
for there my love dwells
sleep in peace
and dream of me
for there all things are safe
sleep in my arms tonight
for there my love dwells
sleep in peace
and dream of me
Sleep Wake
I'm sleeping so wide awake
So still, uncontrollably shake
I'm writing love on sheets of white
as the darkness bleeds into the night
No phrase can make you feel the same
but sometimes I pretend it's a game
You love me at the end of the story
It makes it seem like there's real glory
Even though the sickness is real
It doesn't matter what I feel
Because the cure is a lie
At the end, we all die
So still, uncontrollably shake
I'm writing love on sheets of white
as the darkness bleeds into the night
No phrase can make you feel the same
but sometimes I pretend it's a game
You love me at the end of the story
It makes it seem like there's real glory
Even though the sickness is real
It doesn't matter what I feel
Because the cure is a lie
At the end, we all die
sing
You wonder why we all do drugs
We put our hearts in
and get out shrugs
A man who's singing to the microphone
Is really never happy
Inside he's alone
My feelings tonight consume me
Though everything's fake
as if you knew me
If lonely's all you've ever known
All the things you know
Don't seem so known
I can give advice to a broken heart
I knew you'd get there
It's the price of art
You're just another artist
in protest
you raise your fist
Screaming to God you said
"Let me die tonight
make this my deathbed"
Your fingers bleed when you play
the chords mean nothing
that's what they say
We put our hearts in
and get out shrugs
A man who's singing to the microphone
Is really never happy
Inside he's alone
My feelings tonight consume me
Though everything's fake
as if you knew me
If lonely's all you've ever known
All the things you know
Don't seem so known
I can give advice to a broken heart
I knew you'd get there
It's the price of art
You're just another artist
in protest
you raise your fist
Screaming to God you said
"Let me die tonight
make this my deathbed"
Your fingers bleed when you play
the chords mean nothing
that's what they say
R ... A ...... I ...... N
I wish I could find, a happy medium
Somewhere between two realities
and a forced delerium
and I don't know how to act
When it comes down to being human
But you'll probably never wanna be human again
After you realize that I'm just a ghost
The post-modern view of what love is
You can't find me unless you search
And your gut just starts to lurch
From the feeling of knowing that you'll never even touch
To feel the gripping painful rush
And my tears are just a salt bath
like bathing in the ocean
To a cloud the water comes back
That it makes the falling motion
Maybe that's why I love the rain
I can feel the pain from which it came
I can hear a faint voice in the white noise
Coming from all those good times with the boys
"I just wanna help you up here, and never let you down"
I gave in, I was high, and now I'm coming down
Now, I'm coming down
Somewhere between two realities
and a forced delerium
and I don't know how to act
When it comes down to being human
But you'll probably never wanna be human again
After you realize that I'm just a ghost
The post-modern view of what love is
You can't find me unless you search
And your gut just starts to lurch
From the feeling of knowing that you'll never even touch
To feel the gripping painful rush
And my tears are just a salt bath
like bathing in the ocean
To a cloud the water comes back
That it makes the falling motion
Maybe that's why I love the rain
I can feel the pain from which it came
I can hear a faint voice in the white noise
Coming from all those good times with the boys
"I just wanna help you up here, and never let you down"
I gave in, I was high, and now I'm coming down
Now, I'm coming down
Peace (OUT)
When she sleeps
My life is peace
When I breathe
She's everything to me
If I could sleep tonight
Maybe all would be right
I don't want to get over you
It just seemed like the thing to do
All I ever wanted
I wake from my fantasy
To realize life's broken monstrosity
If only I could find you tonight
Maybe All would be right
I don't wanna cry over you
It just seemed like the thing to do
All I ever wanted
When my last breath is breathed
And the very last sigh is heaved
If only you loved me tonight
Maybe all would be right
I don't wanna die over you
It just seemed like the thing to do
All I ever wanted
Scheme your schemes
Dream your dreams
Fight your fights
Claim your rights
but all I ever wanted was you
My life is peace
When I breathe
She's everything to me
If I could sleep tonight
Maybe all would be right
I don't want to get over you
It just seemed like the thing to do
All I ever wanted
I wake from my fantasy
To realize life's broken monstrosity
If only I could find you tonight
Maybe All would be right
I don't wanna cry over you
It just seemed like the thing to do
All I ever wanted
When my last breath is breathed
And the very last sigh is heaved
If only you loved me tonight
Maybe all would be right
I don't wanna die over you
It just seemed like the thing to do
All I ever wanted
Scheme your schemes
Dream your dreams
Fight your fights
Claim your rights
but all I ever wanted was you
The Gate
To this home
The gate is ajar
To things to be known
This gate is open far
The steps to take
To close the gate
Are long and well
When closed, you'll have a story to tell
Now the gate is closed
But know, every time the wind blows
This gate will swing back
Discipline, you will see, I lack
Now a lock would be nice
but requires some sacrifice
Give away all you got
All of it, every lot
Now, lock this gate
Before it's too late
Watch the gate, swing in the breeze
Don't trust yourself with the keys
The gate is ajar
To things to be known
This gate is open far
The steps to take
To close the gate
Are long and well
When closed, you'll have a story to tell
Now the gate is closed
But know, every time the wind blows
This gate will swing back
Discipline, you will see, I lack
Now a lock would be nice
but requires some sacrifice
Give away all you got
All of it, every lot
Now, lock this gate
Before it's too late
Watch the gate, swing in the breeze
Don't trust yourself with the keys
Visions of Dreams.
One step from hell
Life moves on as a tolling bell
One step from heaven
I count the angels; seven
One step from crazy
All I see is very hazy
One step from sanity
Is life all just vanity?
One step from the end
The rules of this sort I cannot bend
One step from the start
All I have now is my heart
One step from war
Is there anything really worth fighting for?
One step from peace
Of this pain I call a cease
One step from hate
Maybe this is just my fate
One step from love
Is this the only thing worth knowing of?
One step from dying
Is it a little more time I am buying?
One step from living
Is a shot worth giving?
Life moves on as a tolling bell
One step from heaven
I count the angels; seven
One step from crazy
All I see is very hazy
One step from sanity
Is life all just vanity?
One step from the end
The rules of this sort I cannot bend
One step from the start
All I have now is my heart
One step from war
Is there anything really worth fighting for?
One step from peace
Of this pain I call a cease
One step from hate
Maybe this is just my fate
One step from love
Is this the only thing worth knowing of?
One step from dying
Is it a little more time I am buying?
One step from living
Is a shot worth giving?
Not today..
One day I hope to be
Above this continuous misery
One day I hope to find
A place for me, a state of mind
One day I hope to get away
But this day is not my day
One day I hope to break my chains
To accomplish freedom and abolish pain
Above this continuous misery
One day I hope to find
A place for me, a state of mind
One day I hope to get away
But this day is not my day
One day I hope to break my chains
To accomplish freedom and abolish pain
Don't Look
When you look at me
you see something
When I see you
I just see right through
When you hope for things
you make plans and dreams
but I've got insomnia
and the future looks bleak
When you talk about love
you talk about kisses and smiles
but I don't know what that is
I can't feel, it's the problem
I just don't feel
Nothing is real
Sometimes I kneel
I heard Prayers heal
Yeah...
Yeah...
you see something
When I see you
I just see right through
When you hope for things
you make plans and dreams
but I've got insomnia
and the future looks bleak
When you talk about love
you talk about kisses and smiles
but I don't know what that is
I can't feel, it's the problem
I just don't feel
Nothing is real
Sometimes I kneel
I heard Prayers heal
Yeah...
Yeah...
Absolute Compromise
Love isn't about absolutes
It's about compromise
I know that you can see
The fear in my eyes
I don't know what
I ever was about
But whatever I had
Now I'm all out
I'm black and white
and she's in the middle
Sometimes I'm right
But life's still a riddle
I can't solve
I'm too involved
It's about compromise
I know that you can see
The fear in my eyes
I don't know what
I ever was about
But whatever I had
Now I'm all out
I'm black and white
and she's in the middle
Sometimes I'm right
But life's still a riddle
I can't solve
I'm too involved
Bullshit Ideology
Let me take care of you
And You can take care of me
You can be my drug
I can be your cure
I want to know
about everything
honestly
if you could tell me
explain it all to me
I want to understand
I want to make time stop
and maybe I could help
make your pain go away
and you'd smile everyday
And You can take care of me
You can be my drug
I can be your cure
I want to know
about everything
honestly
if you could tell me
explain it all to me
I want to understand
I want to make time stop
and maybe I could help
make your pain go away
and you'd smile everyday
Left Alone
When the sky turns to stars
The streets lose their cars
My fears turn to scars
When I'm left alone
I can feel you tearing me apart
Maybe our end was only my start
But what's left of my broken heart
If only you had known
How you had taken everything
You took all I had to bring
Now all that's left is to sing
Of how you tore my soul
Into many pieces it fell
Some to heaven, some to hell
The vicious flames you could not quell
The ones that made me whole
Were left helpless in your hand
Filtered through like grains of sand
The tasteful love is now all bland
The streets lose their cars
My fears turn to scars
When I'm left alone
I can feel you tearing me apart
Maybe our end was only my start
But what's left of my broken heart
If only you had known
How you had taken everything
You took all I had to bring
Now all that's left is to sing
Of how you tore my soul
Into many pieces it fell
Some to heaven, some to hell
The vicious flames you could not quell
The ones that made me whole
Were left helpless in your hand
Filtered through like grains of sand
The tasteful love is now all bland
Needs Work
Moonlight
True love
Dead Man
Unknown
Dull Pain
Red Blood
Blinds
Finds
Chases
Erases
Feigns
Drains
Midnight
Above
I began
My own
Deep Rain
To flood
True love
Dead Man
Unknown
Dull Pain
Red Blood
Blinds
Finds
Chases
Erases
Feigns
Drains
Midnight
Above
I began
My own
Deep Rain
To flood
My Sol Glasses
I slip on my son glasses
To cover my tears
As everything I have inside clashes
All my hopes, dreams, and fears
I take all I have and I hold it high
But all I grasp in my palms is air
I take my faith, and I cannot rely
On all that I once viewed as fair
Look at my heart broken and black
Take me away from here, please, fast
I feel the curse of the faith I lack
I know if I run back I can last
But without You I will die
I am fading quickly, I feel the heat
All I can do now is ask, "Why?"
Please Lord, save me, only You can defeat
This sickness that consumes my soul
Cure me Father, I need your light
I rip my glasses off, and feel so whole
With your light you made everything right
To cover my tears
As everything I have inside clashes
All my hopes, dreams, and fears
I take all I have and I hold it high
But all I grasp in my palms is air
I take my faith, and I cannot rely
On all that I once viewed as fair
Look at my heart broken and black
Take me away from here, please, fast
I feel the curse of the faith I lack
I know if I run back I can last
But without You I will die
I am fading quickly, I feel the heat
All I can do now is ask, "Why?"
Please Lord, save me, only You can defeat
This sickness that consumes my soul
Cure me Father, I need your light
I rip my glasses off, and feel so whole
With your light you made everything right
My Head.. hurts.
My head hurts
But I ignore the alert
To the mistake I am about to make
But it refuses to allow me to wake
From this nightmare that I love
And my sorrow it continues to shove
Hate isn't a wish, but a choice
And Love not a blessing, but a voice
That rings from within
As we wriggle from our snakeskin
While I look at you in the eye
You hear my resounding cry
I step back from you once again
And I feel the pain piercing my brain
Why can't you hear the voice?
And Why won't you make the choice?
Never look away, and put down the knife
Take away my heart, and my life
Take this love, and take this hate
No matter how hard I try, I can't mutate
From what I am, to what you need
And everytime you, I try to read
Once again I'm illiterate I concede
Another clause of my soundless plead
My blind mind continues to see
What is truth, but only to me
I take my truth and my coat
I was misquoted, and had no vote
So don't take this as true
Don't listen to them, doesn't matter who
And go on listening to lies
Go on living with that false high
It's better than the alternative
Having the perogitive to live
Stop trying to find the truth
And Stop insulting my youth
What's wrong with me?
And this I didn't forsee?
You know exactly
Who I am trying to be
I don't want to throw a fit
So you know what, just forget
I'll just take some asprin
And destroy this violin
But I ignore the alert
To the mistake I am about to make
But it refuses to allow me to wake
From this nightmare that I love
And my sorrow it continues to shove
Hate isn't a wish, but a choice
And Love not a blessing, but a voice
That rings from within
As we wriggle from our snakeskin
While I look at you in the eye
You hear my resounding cry
I step back from you once again
And I feel the pain piercing my brain
Why can't you hear the voice?
And Why won't you make the choice?
Never look away, and put down the knife
Take away my heart, and my life
Take this love, and take this hate
No matter how hard I try, I can't mutate
From what I am, to what you need
And everytime you, I try to read
Once again I'm illiterate I concede
Another clause of my soundless plead
My blind mind continues to see
What is truth, but only to me
I take my truth and my coat
I was misquoted, and had no vote
So don't take this as true
Don't listen to them, doesn't matter who
And go on listening to lies
Go on living with that false high
It's better than the alternative
Having the perogitive to live
Stop trying to find the truth
And Stop insulting my youth
What's wrong with me?
And this I didn't forsee?
You know exactly
Who I am trying to be
I don't want to throw a fit
So you know what, just forget
I'll just take some asprin
And destroy this violin
> hey there.
A brief hello in the echo of metaphorical space
Her face fades pale as her heart into grace
Like every moment I spent for her was waste
I took the ones that slowed me down, she the ones that hasten
The tears she held in her soul, now I drown my face in
And of the fears that grip me in the darkness kept, I must face them
Dashed hopes and bleeding dreams, you and I stay between
Bedlam and silence intertwine, chaos and peace are not seen
Crippled by circumstance, on the strong side I begin to lean
Black and white blur together to bring forth child
A grey which cannot be forgotten, a feeling so mild
A nondescript anger, serenity, emotions that remain un-filed
Change of scene, things cut short that are left to me
Foolishness, regret, fault lines a blind man can see
And as you are, and will forever be, I chose not to be
Clear rain drops, and dirty pick ups, have left me dead
I have been washed away, like a mute leaves it unsaid
The words they speak will not ever escape their head
And to the air I breathe, I hope she breathed it too
When we were so close, she said, "I am breathing in you"
In result, to honor her, that's all I have got to do
Her face fades pale as her heart into grace
Like every moment I spent for her was waste
I took the ones that slowed me down, she the ones that hasten
The tears she held in her soul, now I drown my face in
And of the fears that grip me in the darkness kept, I must face them
Dashed hopes and bleeding dreams, you and I stay between
Bedlam and silence intertwine, chaos and peace are not seen
Crippled by circumstance, on the strong side I begin to lean
Black and white blur together to bring forth child
A grey which cannot be forgotten, a feeling so mild
A nondescript anger, serenity, emotions that remain un-filed
Change of scene, things cut short that are left to me
Foolishness, regret, fault lines a blind man can see
And as you are, and will forever be, I chose not to be
Clear rain drops, and dirty pick ups, have left me dead
I have been washed away, like a mute leaves it unsaid
The words they speak will not ever escape their head
And to the air I breathe, I hope she breathed it too
When we were so close, she said, "I am breathing in you"
In result, to honor her, that's all I have got to do
Hate you
Loving you
I'm never through
I will wait till the end
For a glimse, your face to lend
To illuminate my eyes with your Grace
Take your time, this is no race
God has plan for us together
You may say my love is like a feather
But your love is like a rock
That my life has a forever lock
My Love is no word, but a feeling
From the sight of your words, you have me kneeling
To God my Father with all hope
And from your love I could never cope
Love is greater than everything
And of it, so much you bring
This delights my soul
With all your warmth I will never be cold
With you in my heart
And remember this is only a start
I'm never through
I will wait till the end
For a glimse, your face to lend
To illuminate my eyes with your Grace
Take your time, this is no race
God has plan for us together
You may say my love is like a feather
But your love is like a rock
That my life has a forever lock
My Love is no word, but a feeling
From the sight of your words, you have me kneeling
To God my Father with all hope
And from your love I could never cope
Love is greater than everything
And of it, so much you bring
This delights my soul
With all your warmth I will never be cold
With you in my heart
And remember this is only a start
Love-Less
My dreams are bleeding nightmares
And my love's become cabfares
And I don't know why you even stay
When all I ever am is in your way
Of ever being joyful
or ever being loved
Knowing how I feel
must be getting pretty rough
And I know you keep your sarcasm
Tied up in your closet
and I know you keep your heart
Though sometimes I think you lost it
But where am I without emotion
Like a fading wave in your ocean
I'm just out there in a rowin' boat
You're just waiting for me to choke
I never thought that I could feel like this
It's so much richer with the pains and the risks
Baby, I'm just saying all this shit
maybe you'll feel less guilty about it
Cause I wish you
I wish you did
How I wish you
Yeah I wish you did
I wish you loved
I wish you loved
I wish you loved me, oh
And my love's become cabfares
And I don't know why you even stay
When all I ever am is in your way
Of ever being joyful
or ever being loved
Knowing how I feel
must be getting pretty rough
And I know you keep your sarcasm
Tied up in your closet
and I know you keep your heart
Though sometimes I think you lost it
But where am I without emotion
Like a fading wave in your ocean
I'm just out there in a rowin' boat
You're just waiting for me to choke
I never thought that I could feel like this
It's so much richer with the pains and the risks
Baby, I'm just saying all this shit
maybe you'll feel less guilty about it
Cause I wish you
I wish you did
How I wish you
Yeah I wish you did
I wish you loved
I wish you loved
I wish you loved me, oh
LOST
My soul cries out in terror
while it's consumed with pain
All that I believe is wrong
When my nightmares seem okay
My heart is eternal prisoner
When art is being blind
My life is just a sin
From, I just can't hide
Sickly is the road ahead
And sorrow is my path
I fear the ground I tread
As if it leads to the past
while it's consumed with pain
All that I believe is wrong
When my nightmares seem okay
My heart is eternal prisoner
When art is being blind
My life is just a sin
From, I just can't hide
Sickly is the road ahead
And sorrow is my path
I fear the ground I tread
As if it leads to the past
Back << Looking
Surrounded by darkness
Surrounded by pain
Far past crazy
Thinking life is vain
Walking away
It is easy to see
All thing the things wrong
Once wrong with me
I see how foolish I was
I always had the light
But for my eyes
It was too bright
Having all that pain
Holding on to sin
I wondered, "how?"
How could I ever win?
Then something happened
A realization, a crazy thought
If I let go
I won't be distrought
I tried to let it go
It held on tight
So, I turned to an ally
I was ready to fight
I asked him for help
He gave me conditions
I had to do this
So, for once I listened
I gave up everything for him
I let go
What a sacrifice
It was worth it though
I stand in the light
I thank him every day
For his great sacrifice
He was willing to pay
I want to make it worth it
My mission, I must complete
So more know him
And more are saved from defeat
Surrounded by pain
Far past crazy
Thinking life is vain
Walking away
It is easy to see
All thing the things wrong
Once wrong with me
I see how foolish I was
I always had the light
But for my eyes
It was too bright
Having all that pain
Holding on to sin
I wondered, "how?"
How could I ever win?
Then something happened
A realization, a crazy thought
If I let go
I won't be distrought
I tried to let it go
It held on tight
So, I turned to an ally
I was ready to fight
I asked him for help
He gave me conditions
I had to do this
So, for once I listened
I gave up everything for him
I let go
What a sacrifice
It was worth it though
I stand in the light
I thank him every day
For his great sacrifice
He was willing to pay
I want to make it worth it
My mission, I must complete
So more know him
And more are saved from defeat
Lines-
My lines are bleeding together
My ties to reality are severed
I can't get out of my bathroom
Cause I've forgot where I am
Now I'm searching on the floor
For that paper-back-cut-out whore
I must've nailed her to a door
I must've drank 'til my throat was sore
I've walked down rainy streets
I've walked you to your seat
My thoughts can't be separated
I never thought that you related
I know you're standing on the corner
I know I'm glad that you're a mourner
I feel liked I've lived inside the gutter
I feel I'm your driver and you need a putter
My ties to reality are severed
I can't get out of my bathroom
Cause I've forgot where I am
Now I'm searching on the floor
For that paper-back-cut-out whore
I must've nailed her to a door
I must've drank 'til my throat was sore
I've walked down rainy streets
I've walked you to your seat
My thoughts can't be separated
I never thought that you related
I know you're standing on the corner
I know I'm glad that you're a mourner
I feel liked I've lived inside the gutter
I feel I'm your driver and you need a putter
L i g h t
The sun is fading fast
This world will never last
Turn your eyes on this light
The Son who is truly bright
The one who shines within
and you can't even begin
To imagine His intensity
Not even with the keenest propensity
Can you see the light in my soul
With out this light you will never be whole
So watch the sun fall
but that one can't save you all
This world will never last
Turn your eyes on this light
The Son who is truly bright
The one who shines within
and you can't even begin
To imagine His intensity
Not even with the keenest propensity
Can you see the light in my soul
With out this light you will never be whole
So watch the sun fall
but that one can't save you all
"LIFE"
I hate life
but I love this moment
and I don't know why
Shortly I will be reminded
of every time I cried
And I don't know
who I'll be tomorrow
But whoever he is
He'll know my sorrow
Cause I can't change
Even through long range
Now I begin to seethe
I can't even breathe
I won't sell my loyalty
for a silver piece
I won't trade my honesty
for the pain to cease
And I'll send my love to you
through an eight page letter
And you'll send back a postcard
that says, "I've found better"
If the ocean is in my veins
and truth is in what's insane
Then I'll drown in my blood
I will believe what's in my brain
but I love this moment
and I don't know why
Shortly I will be reminded
of every time I cried
And I don't know
who I'll be tomorrow
But whoever he is
He'll know my sorrow
Cause I can't change
Even through long range
Now I begin to seethe
I can't even breathe
I won't sell my loyalty
for a silver piece
I won't trade my honesty
for the pain to cease
And I'll send my love to you
through an eight page letter
And you'll send back a postcard
that says, "I've found better"
If the ocean is in my veins
and truth is in what's insane
Then I'll drown in my blood
I will believe what's in my brain
Laugh/Cry
The jester wakes with a frown
But smiles for the one with the crown
He makes him laugh, while he hides the tears
They will never know for a million years
The greatest jester will never laugh
He refuses to speak on his heart's behalf
In the night, there's no more Jester
All he is, is a great lament-err
He prays at night, in hopes the laughs will stop
But he keeps his heart close, so it won't drop
Why do you laugh at me, when I make sad jokes
Don't you know my life, is just a hoax?
But smiles for the one with the crown
He makes him laugh, while he hides the tears
They will never know for a million years
The greatest jester will never laugh
He refuses to speak on his heart's behalf
In the night, there's no more Jester
All he is, is a great lament-err
He prays at night, in hopes the laughs will stop
But he keeps his heart close, so it won't drop
Why do you laugh at me, when I make sad jokes
Don't you know my life, is just a hoax?
The Accident
And I haven't felt something since the accident
except for pain but that was evident
When I saw your face I felt something new
Oh I felt something new, and then I knew
That the only thing I've ever known
Ever, ever known, is that I love you
Every night I try to forget what you said
But my thoughts aren't in the blood I bled
And I wish you understood what it's like to hate
Everything you've ever been, and yet feel sedate
I want you to feel, what I feel, when I feel it
but I'd rather swallow the ocean than listen to your bullshit
So I try to sleep at night
And I wait for you to tap on my window
To answer all my questions but where did you go?
Every moment I've lived seems so slow
And the pain swells inside of my soul
While I'm lost in the pursuit of being whole
Dirty confidence and sinful bliss
Is what I feel every time we kiss
And the way you cry out for him
Makes me feel that same way again
If I could lose my feelings and die inside
I could survive another day without my pride
But I'm stuck in your crying lies
That don't answer my prying sighs
And if only I could cut my ties
Then I could be so wise
As to realize that all my tries
Only buys love that dies
except for pain but that was evident
When I saw your face I felt something new
Oh I felt something new, and then I knew
That the only thing I've ever known
Ever, ever known, is that I love you
Every night I try to forget what you said
But my thoughts aren't in the blood I bled
And I wish you understood what it's like to hate
Everything you've ever been, and yet feel sedate
I want you to feel, what I feel, when I feel it
but I'd rather swallow the ocean than listen to your bullshit
So I try to sleep at night
And I wait for you to tap on my window
To answer all my questions but where did you go?
Every moment I've lived seems so slow
And the pain swells inside of my soul
While I'm lost in the pursuit of being whole
Dirty confidence and sinful bliss
Is what I feel every time we kiss
And the way you cry out for him
Makes me feel that same way again
If I could lose my feelings and die inside
I could survive another day without my pride
But I'm stuck in your crying lies
That don't answer my prying sighs
And if only I could cut my ties
Then I could be so wise
As to realize that all my tries
Only buys love that dies
Kingdom Hearts.. And Calculus
We were close once
like Sora and Kairi
We had the problem solved
We were squared like a b and c
You know I need you like
Kingdom Hearts and Calculus
Video games, math and such
High school was so easy
When I think of you I get queezy
Cause it's over
It's all over
You were the Naminé
To my Roxas
You were the radical
That made me function
Now you're gone
That's why I wrote this song
If you were here
I'd sing it in your ear
But we're so far apart
like Sora and Kairi
We had the problem solved
We were squared like a b and c
You know I need you like
Kingdom Hearts and Calculus
Video games, math and such
High school was so easy
When I think of you I get queezy
Cause it's over
It's all over
You were the Naminé
To my Roxas
You were the radical
That made me function
Now you're gone
That's why I wrote this song
If you were here
I'd sing it in your ear
But we're so far apart
c/o Conor
I'm talking in my sleep
To the people who love me
And If I wake up tomorrow
Tell me what I said
The girl I love isn't real
I wonder if she's in the mirror
Waiting there when I am gone
I wonder if she hears this song
Maybe when I grow up
She will treat me like I'm real
Maybe she will care
about how I really feel
I'm laying out in the snow
She wispers in my ear
Isn't it really cold?
Now she knows, I'm warm
The drink she could not tear from me
So she packed and moved away from me
So I'll cry at night, but don't worry
I will be out of sight, I won't bother you
I will write a song in a minor key
I really have no clue what it will be
But I hope you're listening
Cause this one's for you
I've been digging the mirror out of my hands
And I've been plugging my ears
So I don't hear your burning voice
I know I made the wrong choice
The doctor tells me to take my pill
But if I do I will lose my will
And I'll tear pages off of calanders
I'll turn into a philanderer
I can see a dirty hospital
from the gutter where I sleep
and I see the dying people
As they're trying to eat
There's a choir of children singing
They are singing to the dead
and as they harmonize
They wonder what they said
I see it blaring on a t.v. screen
between the wars and death
another ad is telling me
that I should buy the best
A bearded man comes on
and he chants his firm belief:
put your guilt against a crucifix
and weigh them on a scale
Another flash says you better kill yourself
if you can't be happy now
They'll shoot the president
because they can't kill God
And they'll steal from their neighbor
If they can't break through the sod
To the people who love me
And If I wake up tomorrow
Tell me what I said
The girl I love isn't real
I wonder if she's in the mirror
Waiting there when I am gone
I wonder if she hears this song
Maybe when I grow up
She will treat me like I'm real
Maybe she will care
about how I really feel
I'm laying out in the snow
She wispers in my ear
Isn't it really cold?
Now she knows, I'm warm
The drink she could not tear from me
So she packed and moved away from me
So I'll cry at night, but don't worry
I will be out of sight, I won't bother you
I will write a song in a minor key
I really have no clue what it will be
But I hope you're listening
Cause this one's for you
I've been digging the mirror out of my hands
And I've been plugging my ears
So I don't hear your burning voice
I know I made the wrong choice
The doctor tells me to take my pill
But if I do I will lose my will
And I'll tear pages off of calanders
I'll turn into a philanderer
I can see a dirty hospital
from the gutter where I sleep
and I see the dying people
As they're trying to eat
There's a choir of children singing
They are singing to the dead
and as they harmonize
They wonder what they said
I see it blaring on a t.v. screen
between the wars and death
another ad is telling me
that I should buy the best
A bearded man comes on
and he chants his firm belief:
put your guilt against a crucifix
and weigh them on a scale
Another flash says you better kill yourself
if you can't be happy now
They'll shoot the president
because they can't kill God
And they'll steal from their neighbor
If they can't break through the sod
You know... I care
In my heart I hold you close
Even when you seem so far away
like today, I thought it was okay
to be who I am
to do what I can
I just want to be something
and I don't wanna bring nothing
to you when everything is wrong
and the tears fall down
when the pain is so strong
and I can't do anything at all
It's not fair to live like I do
but that's between me and you
It's not right not sleep at night
but that's between me and you
I know what I'm doing
At least that's what I say
I just do what I think I should
So I push it all away
I just want to pay the debt
That my heart has made
I wanna fill the hole
from the foundation that's laid
I wanna break even
I wanna break even
I wanna break even
Even when you seem so far away
like today, I thought it was okay
to be who I am
to do what I can
I just want to be something
and I don't wanna bring nothing
to you when everything is wrong
and the tears fall down
when the pain is so strong
and I can't do anything at all
It's not fair to live like I do
but that's between me and you
It's not right not sleep at night
but that's between me and you
I know what I'm doing
At least that's what I say
I just do what I think I should
So I push it all away
I just want to pay the debt
That my heart has made
I wanna fill the hole
from the foundation that's laid
I wanna break even
I wanna break even
I wanna break even
I know.. You care
In my heart I hold you close
Even when it seems so far away
because today
I thought it was all okay
to be who I was
to be who I am
to do all I really can
I know I want to be something
and I know I don't wanna bring
Another excuse to you when I fail
All those tears fall down while I wail
It's not fair to live like I do
but I made a choice, between me and You
I know what I'm doing, or so I say
and I guess it's just another day
where I do what I think I should
Pushing away all that's good
Just to be the same thing everyday
and try and try and find the way
the way to pay for all this dismay
that I've made for myself and my life
So I just ask that you put down the knife
before you hurt more than you know
I can help you, every doubt fear and woe
Please don't do this, don't become me
Don't be this, this is not what you need
Even when it seems so far away
because today
I thought it was all okay
to be who I was
to be who I am
to do all I really can
I know I want to be something
and I know I don't wanna bring
Another excuse to you when I fail
All those tears fall down while I wail
It's not fair to live like I do
but I made a choice, between me and You
I know what I'm doing, or so I say
and I guess it's just another day
where I do what I think I should
Pushing away all that's good
Just to be the same thing everyday
and try and try and find the way
the way to pay for all this dismay
that I've made for myself and my life
So I just ask that you put down the knife
before you hurt more than you know
I can help you, every doubt fear and woe
Please don't do this, don't become me
Don't be this, this is not what you need
Holding on is wearing Thin
Grasping at air
Some sand, you'll find rare
I was once holding on to the rock
I asked and receieved, the door was opened on knock
Now I stand on nothing, not even sand
I am sick of this so very dark land
I ask you Father to bring me back to you
And I know Father, you love me through and through
I stumble in this darkness with my eyes closed to the light
Pry them open, Father Once again, show me what's right
My heart has been a target for all
Father I don't want to fall
Help me Father, as I reach out to you again
I don't want to drown in these doubts, fears, and sins
Jesus, I am sorry for disgracing your sacrifice
I want to live all of this for you, all my life
Right is Right, and Wrong is I
I am sick of this life, the one of lie
By this don't I just submit to him of all wrong?
I refuse to let his go on, for it has been to long
I must submit to You, Father my God
Cleanse all sin from me, and there will be no doubt behind my nod
The blood of Jesus, I claim to me
The cleansing power, only of thee
I ask into me my Father above
To pour out the healing, of His Love
I take and take, but I am ready to give
My life, for you, I must live
In your shelter I must dwell
Of All this evil I send to hell
I ask all your protection over me
That nothing can touch me, but only He
Oh Father, Father, I love thee
Oh Father, Father, You have saved me
I deseve nothing, and yet I have more
Oh Father, tis You I adore
I thank you in my Brother's Name
and I ask all evil to depart, all that came
I ask you to keep me from tempting things
I forgive all as you forgive me
Your Holy name makes me fall to my knee
I wait for your Kingdom, for it will come
Just as Thy great will, be done
Of the bread, I ask today
And to take from me, Satan away
I say these words making this a prayer fully:
My Great God you are Holy, Holy, Holy
Some sand, you'll find rare
I was once holding on to the rock
I asked and receieved, the door was opened on knock
Now I stand on nothing, not even sand
I am sick of this so very dark land
I ask you Father to bring me back to you
And I know Father, you love me through and through
I stumble in this darkness with my eyes closed to the light
Pry them open, Father Once again, show me what's right
My heart has been a target for all
Father I don't want to fall
Help me Father, as I reach out to you again
I don't want to drown in these doubts, fears, and sins
Jesus, I am sorry for disgracing your sacrifice
I want to live all of this for you, all my life
Right is Right, and Wrong is I
I am sick of this life, the one of lie
By this don't I just submit to him of all wrong?
I refuse to let his go on, for it has been to long
I must submit to You, Father my God
Cleanse all sin from me, and there will be no doubt behind my nod
The blood of Jesus, I claim to me
The cleansing power, only of thee
I ask into me my Father above
To pour out the healing, of His Love
I take and take, but I am ready to give
My life, for you, I must live
In your shelter I must dwell
Of All this evil I send to hell
I ask all your protection over me
That nothing can touch me, but only He
Oh Father, Father, I love thee
Oh Father, Father, You have saved me
I deseve nothing, and yet I have more
Oh Father, tis You I adore
I thank you in my Brother's Name
and I ask all evil to depart, all that came
I ask you to keep me from tempting things
I forgive all as you forgive me
Your Holy name makes me fall to my knee
I wait for your Kingdom, for it will come
Just as Thy great will, be done
Of the bread, I ask today
And to take from me, Satan away
I say these words making this a prayer fully:
My Great God you are Holy, Holy, Holy
Hm
Can you sleep, when you know I am awake?
Is hating me really hard to fake?
If I said I love you, would you run?
Would you be scared if I called you, hun?
If you loved me, would you tell?
Is holding it in just hell?
Do you know I can't live without you?
Do you know that my love for you is true?
Is hating me really hard to fake?
If I said I love you, would you run?
Would you be scared if I called you, hun?
If you loved me, would you tell?
Is holding it in just hell?
Do you know I can't live without you?
Do you know that my love for you is true?
Hisssssssss
People say it was worth it all
When mankind took its fall
No fruit too sweet
that I cannot eat
Ignorance was bliss
now,I hear the snake hiss
It's all that's left inside
Just take a little little bite
I can't run, and I can't hide
I'm just giving in tonight
Smother the wound with salt
you know, it was my fault
No pain too strong
I can get along
I once felt your kiss
now, I hear the snake hiss
People say they want to be saved
Why do we sell our souls away?
No flame too hot
our souls will rot
We're all so sick of this
now, I hear the snake hiss
The melodic destruction
The deathly rebirth
Like zombies in pastures
Full of foolish mirth
The hell is our nation
It's the death we love
We give into darkness
And silence the dove
When mankind took its fall
No fruit too sweet
that I cannot eat
Ignorance was bliss
now,I hear the snake hiss
It's all that's left inside
Just take a little little bite
I can't run, and I can't hide
I'm just giving in tonight
Smother the wound with salt
you know, it was my fault
No pain too strong
I can get along
I once felt your kiss
now, I hear the snake hiss
People say they want to be saved
Why do we sell our souls away?
No flame too hot
our souls will rot
We're all so sick of this
now, I hear the snake hiss
The melodic destruction
The deathly rebirth
Like zombies in pastures
Full of foolish mirth
The hell is our nation
It's the death we love
We give into darkness
And silence the dove
Group Therapy
Gotta carry my pain like a radio box
When I feel lonely when we have these talks
You could turn the volume way down low
but know that you'll never know
You can't run away from heaven and hell
Gotta hurt like I'm ringing a bell
I feel sick when I'm lying awake
Someone help me for Christ's sake
We're all here in hell together
In the same boat, yeah whatever
We're all full of apathy
Welcome to group therapy
Hate the people, when I'm feeling on top
One more comment and I'm ready to drop
Take me over, please take me to bed
You'll never remember what I did, but what I had said
When I feel lonely when we have these talks
You could turn the volume way down low
but know that you'll never know
You can't run away from heaven and hell
Gotta hurt like I'm ringing a bell
I feel sick when I'm lying awake
Someone help me for Christ's sake
We're all here in hell together
In the same boat, yeah whatever
We're all full of apathy
Welcome to group therapy
Hate the people, when I'm feeling on top
One more comment and I'm ready to drop
Take me over, please take me to bed
You'll never remember what I did, but what I had said
Greetings.
I'm gonna buy a million greeting cards
And I'm gonna burn them all
Get Well Soon
Happy Birthday To You
Yom Kippur
Is no more
Sorry Hallmark
But I will embark
On this venture
to endenture
All the world to my greeting card scheme
Come and help me, we'll be a team
Happy Aniversery
Be my valentine
And none of them will ever rhyme
Cause I'm gonna burn them all
All those greeting cards
But don't make the feelings hard
It's not you, but only this card
And I'm gonna burn them all
Get Well Soon
Happy Birthday To You
Yom Kippur
Is no more
Sorry Hallmark
But I will embark
On this venture
to endenture
All the world to my greeting card scheme
Come and help me, we'll be a team
Happy Aniversery
Be my valentine
And none of them will ever rhyme
Cause I'm gonna burn them all
All those greeting cards
But don't make the feelings hard
It's not you, but only this card
God, Oh God
God oh, God
What have I done to feel this
For you to take my iniquity
God oh, God
Jesus Christ, why have you
Give to me His Life
God oh, God
Why do I wake in the morning
When I've turned from you
God oh, God
Aren't you everything?
When I am nothing, oh King of Kings
God oh, God
Forgive all my tresspasses
As I embrace my shame
God oh, God
You've given me life, and love
Something I don't deserve, Lord in your name
God oh, God
I love you so, even though
I cannot speak to those who do not know
God oh, God
Please save them all, I want them Lord
To hear you wonderful call
God oh, God
Please give to me, everything you have
and take away their iniquity
What have I done to feel this
For you to take my iniquity
God oh, God
Jesus Christ, why have you
Give to me His Life
God oh, God
Why do I wake in the morning
When I've turned from you
God oh, God
Aren't you everything?
When I am nothing, oh King of Kings
God oh, God
Forgive all my tresspasses
As I embrace my shame
God oh, God
You've given me life, and love
Something I don't deserve, Lord in your name
God oh, God
I love you so, even though
I cannot speak to those who do not know
God oh, God
Please save them all, I want them Lord
To hear you wonderful call
God oh, God
Please give to me, everything you have
and take away their iniquity
Me
He's just a people pleaser
He'd drive ten thousand miles to see her
And he finally did something for himself
Now his ashes are on my shelf
I guess that's all he could do
I just wish he didn't love you
He'd drive ten thousand miles to see her
And he finally did something for himself
Now his ashes are on my shelf
I guess that's all he could do
I just wish he didn't love you
FUTURE
What am I waiting for?
Who is there?
Is it an heir?
One of mine?
I hope for this
This point I think you miss
One of joy
Just as the bearer
No one could ever be fairer
I ponder still
I wonder of these things
Perhaps tomorrow will bring
I doubt myself
and entire being
I feel this is something I will not be seeing
Will I ever have them?
A love and a life
A refuge from the strife
Perhaps my doubts are wrong
I see a light
An end to this raging fight
but then again
A complication, a loss of friends
Maybe this will never end.
Who is there?
Is it an heir?
One of mine?
I hope for this
This point I think you miss
One of joy
Just as the bearer
No one could ever be fairer
I ponder still
I wonder of these things
Perhaps tomorrow will bring
I doubt myself
and entire being
I feel this is something I will not be seeing
Will I ever have them?
A love and a life
A refuge from the strife
Perhaps my doubts are wrong
I see a light
An end to this raging fight
but then again
A complication, a loss of friends
Maybe this will never end.
Friend, Brother, Father, King, Master
I bow to You, my Lord
A second away from You I cannot afford
I will stand in front of You forever
I will walk away from You never
I have nothing, and that is fine with me
If every second I can praise Thee
I know You are the one, the Father of all
I am ready to hear Your call
I know Father, of your grace
So now I say this with great haste
Come into me and dwell
We have now truly conquered Hell
I ask of everything, my Father above
But All I truly need is Your love
A second away from You I cannot afford
I will stand in front of You forever
I will walk away from You never
I have nothing, and that is fine with me
If every second I can praise Thee
I know You are the one, the Father of all
I am ready to hear Your call
I know Father, of your grace
So now I say this with great haste
Come into me and dwell
We have now truly conquered Hell
I ask of everything, my Father above
But All I truly need is Your love
Free..ze
Freeze water you get ice
Freeze reality you get paradise
Freeze your feelings you get numb
Freeze your mind you get dumb
People are getting older
The World's just getting colder
We're all stuck in this age
All trapped inside this cage
Heat water you get steam
Heat reality what's left is dream
Heat your feelings, you're a criminal
Heat your mind, it's subliminal
Freeze reality you get paradise
Freeze your feelings you get numb
Freeze your mind you get dumb
People are getting older
The World's just getting colder
We're all stuck in this age
All trapped inside this cage
Heat water you get steam
Heat reality what's left is dream
Heat your feelings, you're a criminal
Heat your mind, it's subliminal
The Way
The way my brain bends the numbers inside my head
The way my mouth says the words that should not be said
The way my heart breaks at the thought of your face
The way my blood pumps through like a melodic race
One time I read this murder mystery
I felt like I was reading future history
I turned the page five hundred times
Only to turn out to find
That I should put the book back on the shelf
Cause it was really me who killed myself
The way my mouth says the words that should not be said
The way my heart breaks at the thought of your face
The way my blood pumps through like a melodic race
One time I read this murder mystery
I felt like I was reading future history
I turned the page five hundred times
Only to turn out to find
That I should put the book back on the shelf
Cause it was really me who killed myself
Death Sings
I met a girl
who was in love with death
she gave her speech
and then she left
She finally made me see
That love never wanted me
and all that I learned from love
is that we're better off dead
and I showed by actions
something that couldn't be said
I found something
and fell in love with it
I guess I got carried away
like a horse without a bit
The mirror never answers
My heart felt questions
It has never given hope
Love or suggestions
I sleep with the light on
to know I'm alright
I've lost my sight
of where I am tonight
My heart's become like
A bed of flowers
That dies And from the soil
springs with life again
who was in love with death
she gave her speech
and then she left
She finally made me see
That love never wanted me
and all that I learned from love
is that we're better off dead
and I showed by actions
something that couldn't be said
I found something
and fell in love with it
I guess I got carried away
like a horse without a bit
The mirror never answers
My heart felt questions
It has never given hope
Love or suggestions
I sleep with the light on
to know I'm alright
I've lost my sight
of where I am tonight
My heart's become like
A bed of flowers
That dies And from the soil
springs with life again
Day of THUNDER
I hear the strike.
I hear the pain.
Do I have anything
or is all in vain?
Do I wonder?
Do I wait?
Or am I just second rate?
Does this matter?
Am I asking you?
Do we all really have any clue.
God, oh God!
Please answer me!
Do I stand here with the key?
With out knowing do I know?
With out seeing do I see?
Oh, God, oh God please answer me!
I ask for one.
I ask for thee.
Do I do all, all for me?
I think I am crazy.
I think I am wrong.
Will I be here yet so long?
I know your wonders
I know your grace.
Am I winning this shameful race?
What am I here for?
What do you want of me?
and God, what of he?
I know of him just as you.
He whom watched from high above
Him whom the angels love.
He who, died.
He said words not known.
He finally threw us a bone.
I have waited for this day.
A end, a death
that must progress.
I know, I know
Please do not repeat.
I know that only he could meet.
The needs of us, all broken
He loved all.
Let us hear his call.
I sing out these words.
I know them well,
Do we love, to stay away from hell?
I know nothing.
Nothing, I see,
Will ever explain, why you love me.
Love with more than just a word.
Love me more than just a while.
Forever I shall be your child.
Wait, betrayer!
You lie to me, you lie!
You will leave me to die!
No, don't think that!
You know the wrong, and the right
So keep, Keep up the fight!
I fight for what!
Do I fight for you?
Someone Loves me, but who?
What is life?
What is death?
I suppose just a mess.
I hear the pain.
Do I have anything
or is all in vain?
Do I wonder?
Do I wait?
Or am I just second rate?
Does this matter?
Am I asking you?
Do we all really have any clue.
God, oh God!
Please answer me!
Do I stand here with the key?
With out knowing do I know?
With out seeing do I see?
Oh, God, oh God please answer me!
I ask for one.
I ask for thee.
Do I do all, all for me?
I think I am crazy.
I think I am wrong.
Will I be here yet so long?
I know your wonders
I know your grace.
Am I winning this shameful race?
What am I here for?
What do you want of me?
and God, what of he?
I know of him just as you.
He whom watched from high above
Him whom the angels love.
He who, died.
He said words not known.
He finally threw us a bone.
I have waited for this day.
A end, a death
that must progress.
I know, I know
Please do not repeat.
I know that only he could meet.
The needs of us, all broken
He loved all.
Let us hear his call.
I sing out these words.
I know them well,
Do we love, to stay away from hell?
I know nothing.
Nothing, I see,
Will ever explain, why you love me.
Love with more than just a word.
Love me more than just a while.
Forever I shall be your child.
Wait, betrayer!
You lie to me, you lie!
You will leave me to die!
No, don't think that!
You know the wrong, and the right
So keep, Keep up the fight!
I fight for what!
Do I fight for you?
Someone Loves me, but who?
What is life?
What is death?
I suppose just a mess.
Coming Down
Why do you still care for me?
After all, the things that have come down
Why do you still think of me?
Even when, I am not around
Why do you still talk to me?
Even when I am coming down
Why do you still pray for me?
After all, I have been around
I know I've hurt your heart
From the start
But you still have me
Why haven't you found better?
You wore those summer sweaters
Way too hot for me
Now, you're broken hearted
That's how it all started
you got the best of me
Now, you're all alone
By yourself at home
You should have left me
After all, the things that have come down
Why do you still think of me?
Even when, I am not around
Why do you still talk to me?
Even when I am coming down
Why do you still pray for me?
After all, I have been around
I know I've hurt your heart
From the start
But you still have me
Why haven't you found better?
You wore those summer sweaters
Way too hot for me
Now, you're broken hearted
That's how it all started
you got the best of me
Now, you're all alone
By yourself at home
You should have left me
Wishes
The shimmering silver
blood of the innocent
I held in my hand
I didn't deserve a cent
The overwhelming feeling
The all consuming guilt
I felt death's grip
Hell is what I felt
Now I wish, oh I wish
I was never born
blood of the innocent
I held in my hand
I didn't deserve a cent
The overwhelming feeling
The all consuming guilt
I felt death's grip
Hell is what I felt
Now I wish, oh I wish
I was never born
BrickWall
A picture of a brick wall
and it will fall
I can't pretend
No explanation I can lend
A testament of my pain
I disregard the truth in vain
My defense-
I don't expect condolence
Or anymore time
But why do I embrace this rhyme?
An escape from reality?
Or An example of my brutality?
and it will fall
I can't pretend
No explanation I can lend
A testament of my pain
I disregard the truth in vain
My defense-
I don't expect condolence
Or anymore time
But why do I embrace this rhyme?
An escape from reality?
Or An example of my brutality?
Been... Waiting
I've been waiting for you
I love you more than you know
I've been waiting for you
And all this time you've said no
I've been waiting for you
Since before you were born
I've been waiting for you
And to see you this way makes me mourn
I've been waiting for you
Since before the stars had their shine
I've been waiting for you
been waiting to make you mine
I love you more than you know
I've been waiting for you
And all this time you've said no
I've been waiting for you
Since before you were born
I've been waiting for you
And to see you this way makes me mourn
I've been waiting for you
Since before the stars had their shine
I've been waiting for you
been waiting to make you mine
Be Strong
I really hate my life
where it is where I was
how I feel sick
when I try to hide
from the emotional acid
that eats away my mind
Maybe I can be saved
while there is still time
I wonder why people act like
everything, everything is alright
Maybe it's just me that it pains
The misery I feel, like a rain
That is never ending, forms a flood
It becomes sickness in my blood
I hate you for leaving me
and I know that's not right
Sometimes I can see you
When it's late at night
I wake with a sense of freedom
But with conciousness, comes truth
It hurts so much to realize
That crying had no real use
I know you're listening
When I sing my songs
I know you're crying
When things for me are wrong
I know that you love me
Even if you're gone
I know you're my strength
when I cannot be strong
I cannot be strong
I cannot be strong
where it is where I was
how I feel sick
when I try to hide
from the emotional acid
that eats away my mind
Maybe I can be saved
while there is still time
I wonder why people act like
everything, everything is alright
Maybe it's just me that it pains
The misery I feel, like a rain
That is never ending, forms a flood
It becomes sickness in my blood
I hate you for leaving me
and I know that's not right
Sometimes I can see you
When it's late at night
I wake with a sense of freedom
But with conciousness, comes truth
It hurts so much to realize
That crying had no real use
I know you're listening
When I sing my songs
I know you're crying
When things for me are wrong
I know that you love me
Even if you're gone
I know you're my strength
when I cannot be strong
I cannot be strong
I cannot be strong
Accept
When I can face my feelings
and the way I am inside
Finally acknowledge that my father died
I can become something more than I am now
The love that I have denied, I finally can allow
I can sleep without waking from an evil dream
I won't be manic or depressive, somewhere in between
I don't know who it is, but I can just be myself
It's like life is just a dusty book waiting on my shelf
But for now I'm stuck with sorrow
and this cup I fill with wine
Though there never is a tomorrow
That's when I'll be just fine
Maybe God is never listening
Then I just talk to myself
What if he thinks the same thing
God, Are you speaking to thyself?
Aloneness is my specialty
and sadness is my goal
I have no need for sobriety
If I'm wanting to be whole
and the way I am inside
Finally acknowledge that my father died
I can become something more than I am now
The love that I have denied, I finally can allow
I can sleep without waking from an evil dream
I won't be manic or depressive, somewhere in between
I don't know who it is, but I can just be myself
It's like life is just a dusty book waiting on my shelf
But for now I'm stuck with sorrow
and this cup I fill with wine
Though there never is a tomorrow
That's when I'll be just fine
Maybe God is never listening
Then I just talk to myself
What if he thinks the same thing
God, Are you speaking to thyself?
Aloneness is my specialty
and sadness is my goal
I have no need for sobriety
If I'm wanting to be whole
A Walkthrough.. Heart
No one hears me, when I scream
Because all I live is just a dream
Or a nightmare filled with pain
I wonder why I can't wake
I see it all, it is so fake
Take me away from this rain
I feel it stream down my skin
I hear it crying, "Let me in!"
They can't see it nor can I
The drops consume my every tear
Every pain and every fear
But I just can't make it die
My past seems like such a hope
And with my future I try to cope
But I don't know where to go
No, I can't go back to Thee
I've been sold into slavery
Please know I miss you so
My chains constrain my wrists
You speak of this great gift
And you call it life
You came down from your glory
You saved me at Calvary
You set me free with your sacrifice
You gave your life, for mine
You wake me from this dream
You calm this storm within me
You wipe away my tears
Along with all my fears
You free me from these chains
You take away all my pain
Because all I live is just a dream
Or a nightmare filled with pain
I wonder why I can't wake
I see it all, it is so fake
Take me away from this rain
I feel it stream down my skin
I hear it crying, "Let me in!"
They can't see it nor can I
The drops consume my every tear
Every pain and every fear
But I just can't make it die
My past seems like such a hope
And with my future I try to cope
But I don't know where to go
No, I can't go back to Thee
I've been sold into slavery
Please know I miss you so
My chains constrain my wrists
You speak of this great gift
And you call it life
You came down from your glory
You saved me at Calvary
You set me free with your sacrifice
You gave your life, for mine
You wake me from this dream
You calm this storm within me
You wipe away my tears
Along with all my fears
You free me from these chains
You take away all my pain
A Tribute to Love
What is life with out love?
And it only comes from above
Why do we look for it here?
Is it his love we fear?
They have nothing for us
For theirs why do we put up such a fuss?
We have his no matter what
With out his is a deep cut
Some call a broken soul
With out Him we aren't whole
Why do I want you so badly?
As if I can not go on, but sadly
Why can't you want me the same?
I know all my excuses are so lame
Please love me, it's all I ask
Please do this, this one simple task
Hold me with tender love and care
and your thoughts of me truly bare
Please show me what you think of me
I ask this, for I believe it's the key
To save me from my sadness
If you do this, all I will speak will be in gladness
Why do I idolize you?
In a month I will be asking who,
Who is that you speak of
You mean the one I said I love
I will say I don't and walk away
But see I lie until that day
For I speak love as a curse
Love from my lips is so much worse
Than a poison and a dagger
And with you I walk with a new swagger
I will say you made me want to die
But be very weary of my lie
The lies make my world of hate
The lack of love and the lie of fate
What if I were to look above,
For that wondrous thing we all need, called love?
And it only comes from above
Why do we look for it here?
Is it his love we fear?
They have nothing for us
For theirs why do we put up such a fuss?
We have his no matter what
With out his is a deep cut
Some call a broken soul
With out Him we aren't whole
Why do I want you so badly?
As if I can not go on, but sadly
Why can't you want me the same?
I know all my excuses are so lame
Please love me, it's all I ask
Please do this, this one simple task
Hold me with tender love and care
and your thoughts of me truly bare
Please show me what you think of me
I ask this, for I believe it's the key
To save me from my sadness
If you do this, all I will speak will be in gladness
Why do I idolize you?
In a month I will be asking who,
Who is that you speak of
You mean the one I said I love
I will say I don't and walk away
But see I lie until that day
For I speak love as a curse
Love from my lips is so much worse
Than a poison and a dagger
And with you I walk with a new swagger
I will say you made me want to die
But be very weary of my lie
The lies make my world of hate
The lack of love and the lie of fate
What if I were to look above,
For that wondrous thing we all need, called love?
Five
All my heart belongs to her
Like a fish needs water
I need her
She is my life
Her face is the sun
A token shining brightly, she is the one
Like a fish needs water
I need her
She is my life
Her face is the sun
A token shining brightly, she is the one
Lost Stars
I'll still be in this little world of mine
where people stop in
and then say good-bye
never to say hello again
I'm like the star you found one night
until a brighter one found your sight
I'm just a sparkle in your eye
but sooner or later it passes by
I'm just a passing wave in your ocean
I'm sorry for the love, oh the commotion
The moon has changed it's phase
I'm so lost, I can't be saved
Now I stand in the lighthouse waiting
I guess I'm the one you were hating
Maybe I'll help your lonely boat ashore
but know I've crashed on the rocks before
I thought I knew so very much
but what am I without your touch
I saw you walking down the street
Your victory was my defeat
Now you're gone and I'm sad
The trouble I face isn't yours
You can walk away from my life
Now you're gone, and I'm dead
Now all I have is my friends
without them this would be the end
They dialed nine hundred eleven send
I'd be dead, if you were the operator on the other end
where people stop in
and then say good-bye
never to say hello again
I'm like the star you found one night
until a brighter one found your sight
I'm just a sparkle in your eye
but sooner or later it passes by
I'm just a passing wave in your ocean
I'm sorry for the love, oh the commotion
The moon has changed it's phase
I'm so lost, I can't be saved
Now I stand in the lighthouse waiting
I guess I'm the one you were hating
Maybe I'll help your lonely boat ashore
but know I've crashed on the rocks before
I thought I knew so very much
but what am I without your touch
I saw you walking down the street
Your victory was my defeat
Now you're gone and I'm sad
The trouble I face isn't yours
You can walk away from my life
Now you're gone, and I'm dead
Now all I have is my friends
without them this would be the end
They dialed nine hundred eleven send
I'd be dead, if you were the operator on the other end
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