Where is it?

I need to live but I want to die
I can't find the tears to cry
I need to love, but I want to hate
I want some freedom, but all I have is fate
A void deepens in my soul
It seems this is all I will even know
Please fill me up, oh Father
You are the bread, the living water
I sit here waiting for some one
I just want this petty life to be done
My will to live is greater than my pain
You died for me so my death was slain
I kneel to you, I need your aid
You know me so well, for me you made
Give me some one to love
Peace I desire, like a dove
Thank you Father for these trials
Through this pain and sadness you make me smile