Trying

Failure is just an attempt..
but from success am I exempt?
I will wait for you til the end of time!
My thoughts all but sublime
You stand right there...
but I see no hide nor hair
of you inside my heart.
You stand millions of miles away
I will say it finally, it's not okay!
I see inside your soul
I am not there but I see the hole
The hole I try to fill.
Look inside yet still, deeper inside
This thought might take you for a ride
I am not the strong one I portray
but I am a weakling, and a stray
I have nothing, but you and me
Look deeper and then you'll see
I love you and don't love me
Close your eyes and then you'll see
I am the foolish man
I wouldn't have blamed you if you'd ran
Crying I say to you
I am the tratior and the fool
I have nothing, but me and you
Perpetual sadness continues to ensue
I hate my life
I curse this strife
All I really have is you
I break down at the thought
of your beauty distrought
I have a worry, I am in fright
These words are not of light
I am no hero
In fact all I am is zero
I am fading away
In my heart is where I lay
I am not standing here
I am in my heart trembling in fear
Today I say
An end is on the way
I chose not to fight
Was it right?
I am not worth a cent
Yet I am bent
Bent on a solution to these tears
Yet I still am in my heart trembling in fear