My Head.. hurts.

My head hurts
But I ignore the alert
To the mistake I am about to make
But it refuses to allow me to wake
From this nightmare that I love
And my sorrow it continues to shove
Hate isn't a wish, but a choice
And Love not a blessing, but a voice
That rings from within
As we wriggle from our snakeskin
While I look at you in the eye
You hear my resounding cry
I step back from you once again
And I feel the pain piercing my brain
Why can't you hear the voice?
And Why won't you make the choice?
Never look away, and put down the knife
Take away my heart, and my life
Take this love, and take this hate
No matter how hard I try, I can't mutate
From what I am, to what you need
And everytime you, I try to read
Once again I'm illiterate I concede
Another clause of my soundless plead
My blind mind continues to see
What is truth, but only to me
I take my truth and my coat
I was misquoted, and had no vote
So don't take this as true
Don't listen to them, doesn't matter who
And go on listening to lies
Go on living with that false high
It's better than the alternative
Having the perogitive to live
Stop trying to find the truth
And Stop insulting my youth
What's wrong with me?
And this I didn't forsee?
You know exactly
Who I am trying to be
I don't want to throw a fit
So you know what, just forget
I'll just take some asprin
And destroy this violin